This is my life: Peeling the onion back one layer at a time. At least thats how it feels. The more I continue to challenge myself, face reality, and grow facing those realities, the more I feel like I am getting to know my authentic self. The authentic self is the person we were created to be. This is the journey of real personal growth. The kind of personal growth that genuine confidence stems from. The kind of confidence where you aren’t afraid to admit when you are wrong, that you know you aren’t perfect but know you are enough.
I will be the first to admit that I am not there yet. I still have many insecurities. Too many to count, but I am peeling the onion back one later at a time. Sometimes its painful, many times I don’t want to do it, but the result equals empowerment. Every time I grow in an area or make a mental breakthrough I feel energized and empowered. I feel this way because I know I am getting closer and closer to my authentic self and being comfortable with that self.
I believe that so often we become who we are supposed to be so much that we lose and forget who we really truly are. We believe we have to be perfect, without weakness, not having room for being wrong in order to be accepted and approved of by society and the world around us. Because of that we stop asking for help and instead act like we have it all figured out or that we know how to live life. I don’t think any of us really know how to live our life, we just think we need to know, so we act like we’ve got it all under control. When in reality we are all just making s*** up. I heard a really successful entrepreneur say, no one who is successful knew what they were doing, they just tried a bunch of stuff, failed a lot and eventually something worked.
My #1 desire right now is to get to know the person who God created me to be more and more everyday. To do that I have to peel that onion back one layer at a time. I have to accept my imperfections, attack reality, admit my shortcomings, put myself in uncomfortable situations, fail a lot, and worst of all admit that I don’t have it all figured out. I have to accept that its a process and its not all going to happen at once.
Many times in the past I have thrown my hands up in the air, said I get it I am imperfect and I don’t know it all but then the very next day I’d be faced with an issue I should face head on but instead I’d go back to thinking I had to have it all figured out. Then I would wonder why I wasn’t growing? I thought it was all or nothing. But really peeling the onion back one layer at a time is a process. You don’t get to the core of your authentic self in the blink of an eye or a snap of a finger, its a process. It can be a painful process, but in my opinion its the greatest journey i’ve every been on. Join me if you haven’t already. Why? Because YOU ARE WORTH IT!